So weighing in at 247 i was excited, im too happy to be on this side of 250. Now to jus see the other side of 200 lol. But i did measurements today too and have lost a total of 5 inches!!! It made me so happy.

things are starting to get easier too.the healthy choices and such. One of my patients family members brought in a huge box of doughnut holes. Now, the old me would have dug right in, but now i really wasnt even interested in one. They didnt "call to me" like they would have in the past. My stomach and whole body in general feel so much better.they had my favorite desert the other day at work too, CHEESECAKE lol, now normally i would have had any and every excuse in the book to get my hands on a piece, i stopped with my salad in hand, looked at it for a min, and was like nah thats ok. Then jus kept walking. Choosing right isnt some big lifedestroying decision anymore. its easier when i jus pass it up, i feel better about myself too.

My clothes seem to start to fit a little better too. All of my scrubs were too small from where i had gotten down to 210 and then went on a work shopping spree and then threw all of the other ones away. some are larges and some are xl and the xls were snug, i still cant really get the larges on again but hopefully that will soon come.

My energy level is raising, my happiness seems to be raising. even my work ethic is effected. I feel like i can work faster and more efficiently. Im practically running up and down the halls to do my work and help out the CNAs on the floor. I dont stop while im there, up and down practically the entire 8hrs that i am there. i feel better about my nursing too.

i go nonstop throughout the day, and then i come home and take care of my wonderful family. My happiness level has definitely raised, as well as my confidence. Now it feels not like "if" i get there but "when" i get there. i jus wish it would hurry up lol.

i havent made it to the gym in two weeks,the week before last i was really sick, upper respiratory infection, and then the week that just passed i have been so busy running around with my family and my best friends family jus trying to get things together. I wish i could have went though, i miss it, i definitely have to figure out a good schedule so that i can get there a couple days a week for about an hour, maybe and hour and a half. i am trying to save up for a treadmill too so that i can walk for thirty min before i go to bed. back in the spring hitting the treadmill every night made me feel better and sleep better.

another thought i have, i stopped by the gnc store at the mall, and looked around. I talked to several of the people in there and there is a better protein powder than the one i have been buying that i think i will try. Also i asked about some of the better vitamins for women, there is a package that has a 30 day supply. It has the multivitamin and calcuim/iron supplement in it, all the essential supplements, plus an energy enhancer as well as a fat burner. He said he uses the male version and that he loves it. The female that worked there said that out of everything that package would be the best for me and my goals. i have read a lot of reviews about it as well as talked to many different people and they all really like it and believe in it. So i think im going to get it and try it. its like 40 for the 30 day supply but it has about everything in it. so i have been thinking bout it and i definitely wanna atleast try it, wouldnt hurt to try.

back to the original topic, i cant believe how excited i am over a 9lb 6inch weight loss!!! but jus seeing any results help me wanna push harder. I keep looking at other peoples success stories and keep thinking to myself that one day my page will be a sparkmotivator and a success story, i cant wait for that!!! i think i am succeeding now more cuz im more focused on how i feel and making better choices than i am about my "diet" i am getting fuller faster and with less food, i am drinking at least 8 cups of water a day with no problems, hoping to get to 16 cups soon. i dont even drink sodas anymore. i dont want or crave them, if i buy a drink at a gas station or something its always a green tea.

I have pictures that i have found that are good motivators and i keep them on my phone.but things are definitely starting to get easier. its not a constant struggle anymore. Still a struggle, but its definitely easier to say no.i finally understand that it is one choice at a time, not something you can rush, hurry or destroy with one bad decision.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I keep all my sparkfriends in my thoughs for their struggles as well, i know im not the only one, have a blessed week everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!