Friday, February 10, 2012
The last few days have been crazy for me. I had a bunch of tests (including a midterm), the stress of which was exacerbated by the fact that it's my TOM, and I was also sicker than a dog all of Wednesday and most of yesterday. I ended up not getting enough sleep for 3 nights in a row (mon, tue, and wed) mostly because of stress.
I would seriously go to sleep at 10 each night (a victory), but then wake up at 4:30 in the morning and just be WIDE awake and unable to fall back asleep. Also, I had "stress dreams" involving my hair turning gray and falling out, and other weird situations.
My poor BF also had a lack of sleep and was under stress from having to take care of me, and lo and behold we got into a huge fight last night during which he said some not-nice stuff (mostly because he did not know I was as sick as I was), and I got so upset that I ended up having a full-blown anxiety attack.
I thought for sure after having all of these stress hormones coursing through my body that I would gain weight this week: however, I didn't eat badly last night, despite the stress. In fact my nutrition has been pretty good all week. After my bf and I talked, he realized how sick I felt and said he felt like a jerk for getting upset with me, so it was all just a big misunderstanding and I forgave him.
The real victory here is getting through such a rough couple of days without inhaling a pizza or mexican food or something like that. I am feeling MUCH better today and even had a great night's sleep to boot. Stress dreams: GONE.
I am even on track with my weight loss, despite not working out since last week (maybe after-burn from all the activity I did last week? lol). I think that I am becoming better able to let go of stress, no matter how bad it gets, and I am no longer turning to food for medication. Next time school gets crazy I might try to do some extended meditation sessions each night to see if I can avoid the sleep issues.
I am back on track today and going for a jog in the park.