Well, after years of denial, I am going to a bariatric surgery seminar tomorrow. I just can't do this anymore. I'm tired of beating myself up with each and every bite I take. I'm tired of my knees hurting, feeling exhausted and needing an alien (my cpap machine)on my face in order to sleep safely. My husband is so great and supportive. I'm ashamed of myself that I have gotten so out of control. I can do anything in my life and have achieved and accomplished so much but this is just beyond my understanding that I can't do something as simple as eat less and move more. I just can't do it!!! So, tomorrow I will start the process of getting the surgery. I'm anxious, scared, ashamed and excited all at the same time. I hope I am making the right decision.